It’s been a good weekend for my mental health In the comments of this post Beth said:

…what made me stop having periodic binges is acceptance of myself, my habits and my body. I know I *could* weigh a lot less, but after a lot of soul searching, I realized I’d have to give up a lot of things I love to get to that unreachable goal weight. For me, it was more important to focus on eating as well as possible (along with exercise) without obsessing over deprivation, calorie counting, etc. As a result, I did lose a few pounds and the urge to binge COMPLETELY disappeared. I think that urge stems from the pressure to be perfect.

It was an incredibly smart and important statement.  I instantly thought, “I can’t accept my weight because I’m overweight right now and that’s not acceptable-it’s unhealthy.”  This morning I was reading Angela’s post (I think she was reading my mind), I thought “Wait a second, maybe it’s not that I’m okay with this weight but that I’m okay with the journey.  I need to accept and trust that my body will do what is right. As long as I’m feeding myself healthfully and exercising I will be okay.” Now the trick is to keep remembering these breakthroughs I may need to write them out and put them on my desk at work, on my mirror at home, and in my wallet. 

After Lu’s late night last night we had to wake her up at 9:45. She evidently needed 12.5 hours of sleep and is back down for a nap now. She had an appointment to get some vaccinations at 10:30 and we needed to feed and clothe her.  I made us an oatmeal pancake:

Half for her and half for me   In this bad boy:

-1 banana mashed
-2 eggs
-1/2 cup oats
-1 TBSP chia seeds
-dash of cinnamon
-splash of vanilla
-pinch of baking powder

Here’s mine:

I topped it with almond butter and honey. I’m out of maple syrup and it needed some sweetness.  It was just okay and here’s what I had left:

Lu loved it and ate more than Mommy!  I haven’t had one of these in years. I used to make them every morning and it’s where my love of mashed banana with oats originated.  These were all the rage on Calorie King and then Kath brought them to the masses.  The original recipe is here.

I had work to catch up on from taking a sick day (to be with a sick Lu) on Friday, so after Lu’s appointment I came to Peet’s to get some work done. 

I got a pot of Sencha Green Tea.

I love that they do loose leaf tea at Peet’s.

Sadly, I got too wrapped up in work and let it steep for too long and it became bitter

I also munched on this apple.

And then an 18 Rabbits bar (LOVE THESE). You can see where I got tired of the apple in the background.

We have some friends stopping through tonight and we’re going to an early dinner with them.  Another night eating out but I’m confident that I’ll eat sanely =D