Weaning has been a very emotional thing for me. I really fell in love with nursing. It wasn’t a question to me IF I would nurse but I didn’t know for how long and I was really scared that it would gross me out. It was the exact opposite. It was the most natural thing in the world and brought so much joy to my life.

First Time Nursing

I struggled through supply issues, pumping in airport bathrooms, bleeding nipples (yes the pump caused my nipples to BLEED) but I made it to a year! I’m so proud that I did and I’m so happy that Lucy and I got to experience that bond for 12 and half months.

First Time Nursing in Public

The BEAST (the dreaded pump)

When it came time to wean I had too many questions to count. I called the lactation consultant numerous times and consulted many of my online Mommy friends and friends in real life. I read books, I researched, I searched online. Still, going through the process was confusing and hard and most of all scary.

Six Months

I thought I’d tell you about my experience.

When Lucy was about 10 and half months old I started paying attention to how much she was nursing. At that point it was around 4-5 times a day. I decided not to just whip out the boob at any provocation and tried to only nurse 3-4 times a day.

The next thing I tackled was pumping. I reduced my pumping sessions from 3 times a day to 2 times a day. I was pumping at 10, 1, and 4 and I started to just pump at 10 and 4.

Six Months

Then we went to Hawaii and I was REALLY glad that I had my superhuman milk making powers! That 6 hour plane ride would have been hell without nursing! While we were in Hawaii, Lu nursed 2-3 times a day but while on the plane ride home she nursed almost constantly.

Nursing While Hiking in Hawaii-Almost 12 Months:

We got home a few days before her 1st birthday and I REALLY wanted to be done pumping. I tried to only pump once a day for 10 minutes (vs. the 30 minute sessions I was doing before). My plan was to reduce it each day by 2 minutes. On the second day I was super full and in pain. I ended up pumping twice that day, just to relieve the pressure. I did make sure to STOP pumping before my milk stopped dripping. Milk is totally dependent on supply and demand and I needed to let my body know that there was no more demand during the day.

By the end of September (her birthday is on the 22nd of September) I was DONE pumping.

I was still nursing morning and evening but I noticed that she was barely nursing at night. I decided to cut out the night nursing but continue nursing first thing in the morning.  I did start to nurse for shorter amounts of time but wanted to keep going. Our morning nursing was my favorite part of the day and I didn’t want to stop that just yet. I would bring her into bed with me and would nurse while I got a few more minutes of sleep and we would cuddle.

I was nursing at night on my right side and in the morning on the left side. I decided to try and let my right side dry out and continue to nurse on the left in the mornings.

After I cut out the night nursing, my right boob was fine. I thought that I was “drying up” already and this confirmed it for me.

Well, until 2 days later. Oh.My.God. I have never been in so much pain in my life. My right boob was engorged, hard as a rock, and painful to the touch. I decided right then and there that it was time to to completely wean because I didn’t want to prolong the process.

I had the added benefit that my in-laws were visiting and we we sleeping out on the couch (they got our bed) and so our routine was messed up anyway. They tell you NOT to go where you normally go to nurse when you’re trying to wean. Since, we wouldn’t be in our bed for almost a week, it seemed like the best time.

Instead of nursing Lucy that next morning I gave her her normal morning snack of string cheese as soon as she woke up (rather than after she nursed) and I gave her a sippy of water. She seemed fine with it.

To deal with the pain I was in I took hot showers. I massaged my breast in the shower. I wore cold cabbage in my bra (ahhh that felt so good-wear it until it wilts and then replace). I took anti-histamines at night (notorious for drying nursing mothers up). I drank mint tea (also helps dry you up). My left side did get a little engorged but it never got painful. Almost a week later and my right breast was still in pain. Like, MAJOR pain. My whole right side hurt. It was horrible. I felt my breast and discovered that it was completely soft except for one spot that was rock hard.

I had a plugged duct. I had gone 382 days of nursing with no plugged ducts and then this. The best way to get rid of a plugged duct is to have your ‘lil one nurse. I was hesitant to do that since Lu was doing so well not nursing.

That night I got into a really hot shower (heat helps with letdown) and started massaging. Then I pressed on the lump and milk SHOT out of my nipple for a good 5 minutes!!! No hand expressing, just pressing on the lump-CRAZY. I swear to you-that was the best shower of my life.

After that I’ve had no pain. I haven’t needed cabbage or anything and my boobs seem to be back to “normal”.

Emotionally-weaning has been hard but not as hard as I thought. Lucy has become a little cuddle bug. I get more cuddles now then I did when I was nursing-it’s fabulous! She has asked to nurse 3 times in the last week and a half and I was able to distract her and just give her cuddles instead.

I also have about 100 times the energy now as compared to when I was nursing. I didn’t realize how much it was draining me. I feel like the “old” me again.

If I had it to do over again would I stop nursing sooner to get the old me back? Never in a million years.

Last Day We Nursed

I am so unoriginal =D I decided to jump on the bandwagon and bought some chia seeds at Whole Paycheck on Saturday. I’ve been having some *ahem* MAJOR gastrointestinal issues for the last 3 weeks and when I read that they can help in that arena I decided to try them. The ones I got were in the bulk aisle and brown. They come in both white and brown varieties. I first tried them in a protein shake on Saturday and gave Lucy some (not really thinking). Well-they worked on her! I added some to my oatmeal both yesterday and today and I have to say that they are working for me too-HOORAY! In addition to helping in that area, they are also very filling-the absorb something like 9 times their size in water. I definitely noticed a difference and feel quite full after I eat them. You can just eat them straight (although I’d think that would be a little weird), you can make them into a gel, or you can just add them to your cooking or to smoothies. I give them a thumbs up!

You know what else I give a thumbs up? ME! I have been eating really well-I had a GREAT weekend and I got up at 5:30 this morning to do some P90X action. I woke up with my alarm and felt GREAT while working out. Now I feel really energetic and not like I’m going to die. I haven’t felt this way since before I got pregnant. I used to LOVE working out in the mornings but ever since I got that extra line on my pregnancy test, morning workouts HAVE NOT been agreeing with me. That’s a good 22 months of just NOT feeling like myself. I think the fact that I’ve stopped nursing has me back to “normal”. I know that my body is still a bit confused since I only stopped a week and half ago but I really am starting to feel like the old me. Don’t get me wrong, I am SO happy and proud that I nursed Lucy for a year but this tells me that it really was time to wean. Plus? Lucy has become a cuddle bug since I weaned her. I get more cuddles now then I ever did while nursing-it’s FANTASTIC. I do miss it sometimes but like I said, it’s only been a week and a half and I think that’s to be expected.

Now, let’s hope that this isn’t a fluke and I can stay on this train!

Cyn asked about nursing. I am COMPLETELY done pumping-YIPPEE!!! I haven’t pumped in almost 2 weeks-WOO HOO for that! I am still nursing her morning and evening, but I think that my milk is pretty much gone. My boobs never feel full anymore and I tried to hand express this morning and got maybe a dot of milk. Shaun’s going to try to put Lu down this evening with no nursing. We’ll see how that goes. She still really LIKES to nurse in the mornings and gets mad if I stop the nursing session but if I offer her some string cheese she’s okay. She’s taking whole milk out of a sippy cup at daycare but refuses it at home-or will only take a few sips. She was acting REALLY hungry this morning even after a 30 minute nursing session (I bring her to bed and sleep while she nurses) and after her string cheese, so I gave her a sippy of milk. She was more interested in playing with it than drinking it.

My 10-year reunion is in 2 weeks and we’re staying with my Aunt and Uncle and leaving her with my them while we’re at the reunion. I need her to be able to go down without the boob (or bottle-she hasn’t had a bottle in over a week), so I think it’s a good idea to start that now. She eats A TON before going to bed at dinner so I think nursing is just for comfort right now. Once she’s able to go down without the boob, I’ll then work on the mornings. I think I’ll still bring her into bed with us (I get back into bed after I work out to nurse her) because it’s a time that we’re together as a family. I’ll just give her a sippy of milk that hopefully she’ll take.

It’s all so complicated and confusing. And of course now that I’m ready to wean she’s all about the boob. She’s always been a good nurser but never one of those babies that LOVED nursing. Well now she it…

We’ll get it figured out.

Yesterday was a bit of a disaster eating wise. It was all healthy but I at too much. Oh well today is a new day, right?

It’s going well so far other than the fact that I’m so tired it hurts.